wednesday

morning


this day began very early, even for an early bird like me.  i'm not sure what kept me awake when i opened my eyes at four o'clock this morning.  usually i will search my mind and my heart and find someone there. a message from God, that a prayer is needed, forgiveness is needed or preparations are needed as He is about to send me to give a miracle. nothing.  


the cat wanted in.  usually, when it's bedtime for me, it's bed time for fluffy.  last night, she wanted out. maybe my tears were getting on her nerves.  oh well. i know there are more to come.


it was so eerie when i sat outside after making my coffee, as i do.  thick fog hung between earth and heaven.  not touching the ground.  not touching the sky.  i could see under it.  i could see over it.  but i couldn't see through it.  street lights broke through in tiny whispers, so faint i could hardly hear.  a heron called off in the distance.  i just sat there.  it was almost too rude to breathe.  


it's times like this you listen to your heart.  i know God is speaking.  but i don't know what He's saying.  i don't think He woke me up for this.  but maybe He did.  He always has great things on His mind.  is that where i am?  between heaven and earth?  is there too much fog for me to see clearly? but lights whisper through.  am i really on His mind and in His heart but i have fog to clear before i see Him clearly?